My beloved came home late from a work meeting last night and even though he brushed his teeth, I could smell the wine in his breath and I didn’t like it. I more than didn’t like it, I HATED it! I actually felt anger!
I have noticed my negative feelings when he has had some drinks and I smell it instantly in his breath. Even if he has had just one.
I know why I feel almost repulsed by the smell and I am afraid to tell him. My father. He use to come into my bedroom after a night of drinking with his friends at the bar. Before he even went to his room, he came to mine and asked me to do things to him, sexual things. I could smell the alcohol seeping out of his body. My husband’s breath takes me back to this part of my childhood.
I don’t think I could be intimate with my love if he has had some drinks now that I am sober. I will need to tell him before the situation comes up.
Also, I was so stupid to think that no one could smell my alcohol just because I brushed my teeth. I was with my neighbor this morning and I mentioned this part of it after yoga class and she said “I smelled it several times but I didn’t want to make you feel bad.” 😦 so shameful. How many people at church smelled it, I wonder. Sigh