I am a little scared that I may be getting a little ahead of myself. I am afraid that the goals and the motivations I am setting forth on this day will be taken away due to stress, worry, grief, pain and sadness due to upcoming circumstances.
The fact is, I don’t feel really like I am recovering when I still abuse my body with junk foods, refined sugars and feeling overweight. I am 5’3 and 150lbs! All this really alters my moods, affects my self esteem, contributes to my depression and robs me from my energies. I need all of the above to be restored so that I can go through V’s risky surgery and the long recovery process afterwards.
I had signed up for a half marathon in January with Run For Our Sons organization to raise money and awareness for Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy and so the training HAS to start tomorrow and somehow make it a priority during V’s recovery.
Hey at least I can try, right? From here till V’s surgery date of December 2nd, I may be able to detox all the toxins from junk food, increase my energy, and alter my moods to more positive optimistic views and will more easily handle the stress. I have nothing to lose in trying. I will do all that I can and promise to listen to my body. When it needs rest, I will rest and if I can’t make it to the race, then it’s okay too.
Here is what I worked on tonight to help me get motivated and started. A workout calendar and a little note by my bathroom mirror to remind me of my CAN’s.