Hello to all my sober bloggers! It has been so good to read what all of you have been up to. It’s so neat to see so much progress. It’s encouraging.
Well, I left…got drunk and had a hell of a time getting sober again. I was shocked when I was trying and kept falling. I figured I had 9months sobriety, I could just quite drinking easily again (totally forgot it wasn’t easy to begin with). So I stayed in the haze for 3 months and it was HELL ON EARTH! Knowing what I got to discover in my absense from drinking but then still drink was absolute torture! I was letting myself down, my kids, my husband. I was behaving in ways I never wanted to see myself behave again and it was awful. I’d have to say, it was by far the darkest place I have ever been in.
Today, I have gone 27 days without booze and I’m real good with that. Today I understand that my 3 month relapse had it’s purpose. I believe the 1st 9 months I mostly leaned on will power to get me from day to day. Today, there is a STRONG conviction that I could NEVER EVER drink again. Even though I had wished to celebrate my 1 year last month and wished I didn’t let my loved ones down, I am also grateful I am at a place with more knowledge, conviction and faith.
Thank you for reading. I appreciate you and your journey.
Happy sober sunday