Day 56: Home

Today is the day, I think, that we will find out if we are approved for a rental home. I am all prayed up and am trusting in God to provide and open/close doors. Only He can give us a perfect SAFE place to call home. 

I finished painting this lovely landscape last night using Oil Pastels. From the moment I started sketching, I stayed in prayer asking God to bless us with a safe place we can call Home. Sadness filled my soul as I grieved over my life realizing that I’ve never felt safe anywhere I have ever lived. Growing up, my home was filled with sexual and physical violence along with addiction and darkness. Then I lived on the streets which was no safe place for a pregnant teen. I then lived from one place to another, never establishing a permanent place as a single mother. I either got evicted because I couldn’t afford it, it got too dangerous due to the ghetto neighborhoods I lived in or the place became infected with rats or I got kicked out just because I wasn’t liked (I never really understand why this one landlord out right just didn’t like me, she told me so herself.) 

None of the homes I lived in while married where safe either. 1st husband, physical abuse. 2nd husband, emotional abuse along with addiction and constant abandonment and now here I am, without a safe home again. 

There is a scripture that kept coming into mind as I painted. Psalms 23:1-6

β€œHe makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.”

My truest of safest of homes lies in Him! My love, my creator, my comforter, my eternal place. Oh how I long to live with him forever!  Come again soon beloved and take us HOME!


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