Today is the day, I think, that we will find out if we are approved for a rental home. I am all prayed up and am trusting in God to provide and open/close doors. Only He can give us a perfect SAFE place to call home.
I finished painting this lovely landscape last night using Oil Pastels. From the moment I started sketching, I stayed in prayer asking God to bless us with a safe place we can call Home. Sadness filled my soul as I grieved over my life realizing that I’ve never felt safe anywhere I have ever lived. Growing up, my home was filled with sexual and physical violence along with addiction and darkness. Then I lived on the streets which was no safe place for a pregnant teen. I then lived from one place to another, never establishing a permanent place as a single mother. I either got evicted because I couldn’t afford it, it got too dangerous due to the ghetto neighborhoods I lived in or the place became infected with rats or I got kicked out just because I wasn’t liked (I never really understand why this one landlord out right just didn’t like me, she told me so herself.)
None of the homes I lived in while married where safe either. 1st husband, physical abuse. 2nd husband, emotional abuse along with addiction and constant abandonment and now here I am, without a safe home again.
There is a scripture that kept coming into mind as I painted. Psalms 23:1-6
“He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.”
My truest of safest of homes lies in Him! My love, my creator, my comforter, my eternal place. Oh how I long to live with him forever! Come again soon beloved and take us HOME!